No – I didn’t oversleep… HP is out of town so no Pilates for me this morning and I’m surprised to find that I missed starting my Saturday with pain and torment Pilates.  It just felt like something was missing all day.

Although I did get my brows down and my hair cut and colored – and that ALWAYS makes for a good day!  It’s hard to not feel pretty when the all the grey gets banished.

I’ve also been thinking it’s time to start doing some of the damn cardio…  So my goal for now until my birthday (35 days from now) is to do cardio 2x a week for 20 min each time.  I’m hoping my knee can survive 20 min on the Elliptical because that’s about the only cardio I don’t hate with the intensity of a thousand white-hot suns.  Depending on how long I have to work tomorrow, I may hit the gym in the afternoon.  And then I plan to hit it again on Thursday.  I see ET Wednesday & Friday, and HP on Saturday.

Time to charge the iPod and find my headphones I guess.

Four days in a row of the Evil Trainer or Pilates, this sums up how I feel…

EVERYTHING hurts right now… But I survived…

No Pilates next Saturday – HP is out of town, but I’m going to try and see her during the week if I can make the scheduling work… Man I HOPE I see a nice difference in measurements after all this pain.

Pilates yesterday, Evil Trainer today, Evil Trainer tomorrow, and Pilates Saturday….  I may not survive…  The muscles near my “lady parts” and my ass are killing me!  And after today’s workout, I suspect my shoulders/arms will be killing me tomorrow.  I used to be able to see the Evil Trainer 4 days in a row and not be dying from it, but clearly my year off (the sabbatical as ET and I now call it) was not the best thing I could have done for myself…

I can tell you I will have EARNED the lunch tomorrow with a friend and a FABULOUS Sunday Brunch at Le Central on Sunday with the BGBF….  Too bad cassoulet isn’t a brunch dish… Apres brunch we are hitting a new (to us) yarn shoppe, then off to our favorite local chocolate shop and spice shop… And then it will be time for tea…  It’s going to be a wonderful Sunday!

Next week (probably Wednesday) is weigh/measure day.  I haven’t stepped on the scale this month, and frankly I don’t care what it says – I’m more interested in what my measurements are… I’ve been VERy good with seeing the Evil Trainer and doing Pilates this month so I’m hoping my measurements will reflect that.

And I found out on Tuesday that the place I’m contracting at is going to extend me for another month – so I’m employed through February.  *sigh of relief*  And the company I’m sub contracting to on this gig may have a couple other things for me if they can get their clients on board.  *fingers crossed*  I’m still looking just in case things don’t work out, but I’m hoping they do and I don’t have to go back to being a “real” employee for a while yet…

In an allegedly good way…  HP was working on stretching my hammies and working on building up the strength of my inner things…  But bottom line?  MY ASS HURTS!  Everything she had me do involved it being clenched, and an hour of of clenching means MY ASS HURTS.  :D

And I get to do it all again tomorrow morning.  (I’m doing make up Pilates for sleeping right though my session last week)

I meant to weigh-in this morning, but honest to god forgot.  I got completely out of the habit in December… Perhaps tomorrow I’ll remember.

Didn’t find any jobs to apply for today, and I can’t spend all my time sitting on the couch not doing anything until I have a job again, so I need to figure out how to spend my time once my contract is over.

Perhaps it’s time to get my ass back into the pool and swim.  I’ll bet the pool won’t be busy during the day… And since I’m paying for a damn gym membership that I don’t ever use… Hopefully swimming will not make my knee hurt like the damn stationary bike & elliptical make it hurt.

And perhaps I’ll bang out some more items on my 101 in 1001 list – like unpacking the rest of the damn boxes, and getting the decluttering done.. and knitting, and do some painting and drawing… too early to garden – God I hope I’m not still unemployed when it IS time to garden….

I’ve decided in the job hunt to REALLY focus on a job doing what I want to do – and what I think I want to do is Project Management.  System Administration will be my backup – I’ll still look for jobs as an SA, but I’m only going to apply for ones that really sound interesting, not just for any SA job I’m qualified for.  I’m hopeful that the law of averages will be on my side, and if I apply for enough PM jobs, ONE of them will work out for me.

Trying to stay positive here…

But better late than never:

So far it’s been good to me….relaxing day yesterday, Pilates this morning (shoulders still hurt), and spent tonight crying watching the Dr. Who finale (yes, I AM lame).

I’m going to miss the 3-day work weeks, it’s going to be hard to go back to having to work 5 days a week. ;)

And I must thank you folks again for the kind words on my last post. The constant barrage of diet & weight loss commercials had gotten to me – I’m feeling slightly better now.

It’s hard as hell, and it kills me to get through the sessions, but damn if I don’t feel GREAT afterwards!  I came to this realization after HP kicked my ass yesterday morning.  :D

Even though it’s still really hard, I SWEAR I can feel myself improving – I actually got through the hated leg circles yesterday without stopping!  First time ever!  It’s just really encouraging to feel the improvement even if I can’t see it when I look in the mirror.

I don’t intend to give up my sessions with ET, I think his sessions along with Pilates once a week are a great combo for me.

Now if I could just make myself do the goddamn cardio.  I will NEVER love the cardio….

Well had my “First Friday” weigh & measure today.  Good news and bad news…

The bad news – I missed my goal of 350 – I weighed in at 354.6….  :(  Not surprising since I did spend about 2 weeks off the wagon in a candy & junk food haze.

The good news?  I lost 7 3/4″ inches in October!!!  The Evil Trainer is VERY pleased – and frankly so am I!  It’s a nice reminder that the scale isn’t the only measurement of success… 

I’ve been feeling much better too.  The insomnia problem seems to have resolved itself.  I really think it was all the candy that was messing me up.  So the trainer was able to really work me hard today – and tomorrow morning I get to be tortured in Pilates by his fiancee.  I’m wondering if adding the Pilates in weekly isn’t helping give me that big boost in inches lost – didn’t want to say that to the Evil Trainer because I didn’t want to hurt his feelings.  :)  I think the combo of his workouts with the Pilates could be just what the doctor ordered.