To 2009.  Not sorry to see it end.

Hoping to recommit to my weight loss in 2010 and get some motivation for it.  I wouldn’t say I’ve abandoned it, but….

I’ve been seeing the Evil Trainer, and I’ve been doing Pilates.  And although my eating hasn’t been *that* horrible the past month or so, it hasn’t been good.

I’m not going to make any weight resolutions for the new year, I rarely ever make any, and the few times I do, I don’t follow through.  I’m merely going to try and be good to myself and live healthy AND sanely.  I will continue to see the Evil Trainer and do Pilates, and I’ll keep up on my goals of giving up fast food, diet soda, pizza, and, most importantly, bingeing.

I’m going to knit and work on my art and finally do a painting that has been rolling around in my brain.

I’m also going to try and “meet” new people.  First step is the 2 new pen pals I got today from a group on ravelry.com, the “P.S. I Knit!” group – one is in the UK, and the other is in the Nederlands.

I also hope to figure out a new career for myself….that is going to be tough… Especially in today’s job market.  But I’m not sure I can take yet another SysAdmin job where I hate going to work every damn day.

Basically I plan to live like there is more to me than my size and my weight – BECAUSE THERE IS!

And now to ring out the old, and ring in the new, Angus & the Christmas Lobster wish you all a Happy, Healthy, Wonderful New Year:

No, not “that” groove…  My weight loss groove.

I’m tired of feeling sorry for myself because I’m not losing the weight.  I’m tired of the excuses, and feeling like a failure.  So enough bitching and moaning.  Time to focus on being positive and on making good changes in my life – Holidays or not, Funk or not.

So the $64,000.00 (or should that be the 140lb) question is – HOW?

hmmmm… wellll… ummmm…

Well, part of the problem is my complete lack of desire to get off the couch, let alone leave the house and hit the gym (sadly I’ve worked from home for the past 3 weeks because of this).

I know this “funk” sounds more like depression, and although I’m sure it is depression, I’m going to continue calling it the funk, and try to work through it without meds.

So the first order of business is to get my ass off the couch and away from the TV AND the Internet.  That means going into the office instead of working at home, and it means NO MORE cancelling sessions with the Evil Trainer!

For the rest of December, those are my only goals –

  • Go into the office
  • Don’t cancel sessions with the Evil Trainer
  • Do 20 minutes of cardio before each session with ET

I can safely say there is not a chance in hell that I will reach my original goal of 299 by my birthday in March, so I’m letting that now very unrealistic goal go.  I will now be happy if I weigh in the 320’s on my birthday.  I’ll worry about the rest of the weight after that.  I’m guessing I’m still at about 355 now – I’ll weigh in Friday and get my measurements done as well.

And now for my current “issue” – please read this and join me in vowing to boycott the purchase of Ralph Lauren products.

HuffPo article on the issue:  Ralph Lauren Boycott:  Retaking Beauty

Facebook Page for boycott:  ATB Action Network Boycott of Ralph Lauren

Stuck with my plan of spending this weekend painting – and I’m tired and sore from it.  BUT the colors look fabulous so it’s all worth it.

I also managed to injure myself in a completely unexpected manner – I reached into my freezer to unjam some ice built up at the back of the ice maker – and found that there was a piece of SEARING HOT METAL that has blistered the crap out of two fingers.  GODDAMN IT HURTS!  So now I’m thinking that fridge is going to get replaced sooner than planned…stupid damn thing…

I survived the long weekend so far VERY well.  Had a bit too much pumpkin pie on Thursday, but still managed to keep it in my calorie range – YAY!  And I did well yesterday and today because I was busy painting and not just sitting around snacking.

Since the Evil Trainer is out of town this coming Friday, we are moving my weigh/measure day to Tuesday.  I didn’t weigh myself Friday, so I’m not sure where I’m at goal-wise, but I guess I find out soon enough!

Also had a successful Buy Nothing Day on Friday – well, almost successful…  I did watch TV (Fox Movie Channel), but other than that, there was no shopping, no internet, no phone use, no use of my car from dawn till dusk.  I didn’t watch much TV, it was on for my “noise” and I watched bits of movies while I was on paint breaks.  So I’m calling it successful  :P

I’ve decided to make my first ever buttermilk biscuits for Turkey Day dinner, so I’m on the hunt for a recipe. Lots of them seem to involve self-rising flour – and I’ve found self-rising flour doesn’t work right when you are baking a mile above sea-level…

I’m making the dinner (as usual) for myself and my parents.  Since their kitchen SUCKS to cook in, I’m thankful I don’t have to figure out how to cook for a crowd in it…

The menu:

  • Herb Roasted Turkey Breast (yeah, just the breast)
  • Dressing with Fennel, Pine Nuts, & Italian Sausage
  • Mashed Potatoes and Gravy
  • Green Beans with Hazelnuts
  • Buttermilk Biscuits
  • Store bought Pumpkin Pie

I usually make a homemade pumpkin pie, but I haven’t cooked and canned my two pie pumpkins yet and I refuse to use the store bought crap canned pumpkin.  Yeah, I know, I’ll buy a crap store-bought pie but not the crap canned pumpkin…. It’s just how my crazy rolls…

I’ve got everything I need except for the buttermilk… So I should just need to make a quick trip to the store Wednesday morning.

What I’m REALLY looking forward to is Friday/Saturday/Sunday…  I get to paint my Living/Dining room and put up my beautiful new wall sconces… It’s not the actual painting that I’m looking forward to – it’s the fact that that will get rid of a BIG chunk of the dingey yellow that I hate…and the ugly ass wall sconces as well…  I only hope the walls look as good in the new colors as I’m hoping they will – I’m still loving the samples I have painted, so that’s a good sign.

All in all, this holiday weekend is going to be all about banging out some items from my 101 in 1001 list… Oh, and I’ll try and work in some walks or cardio too I guess… And I suppose I’ll also try to not gorge myself on food… After all, my weekly weigh-in is Friday morning…  ;)

In case I don’t blog again before the holiday – Happy Turkey Day all!

Well had my “First Friday” weigh & measure today.  Good news and bad news…

The bad news – I missed my goal of 350 – I weighed in at 354.6….  :(  Not surprising since I did spend about 2 weeks off the wagon in a candy & junk food haze.

The good news?  I lost 7 3/4″ inches in October!!!  The Evil Trainer is VERY pleased – and frankly so am I!  It’s a nice reminder that the scale isn’t the only measurement of success… 

I’ve been feeling much better too.  The insomnia problem seems to have resolved itself.  I really think it was all the candy that was messing me up.  So the trainer was able to really work me hard today – and tomorrow morning I get to be tortured in Pilates by his fiancee.  I’m wondering if adding the Pilates in weekly isn’t helping give me that big boost in inches lost – didn’t want to say that to the Evil Trainer because I didn’t want to hurt his feelings.  :)  I think the combo of his workouts with the Pilates could be just what the doctor ordered.

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Okay – I believe I’m finally back on the wagon!  Although I did have some candy today, I kept the amount low, and overall my calories are good for the day (even had some veggies!  ;)

Now that halloween and the party is over, and all the “bad” food is gone (perhaps not disposed of in the best manner), it’s time to renew my commitment to myself and to losing weight!

I actually forgot to weigh myself Friday – got up late, and had to get the dog fed and get dressed before the electricians showed up… So I was going to weigh myself Saturday – again, got up late and had to get my butt to Pilates.  So TODAY I was going to weigh – AGAIN, up late and get to get online and work (had some big production changes to get in place).  Of course part of the issue is that I put the scale away for the party, and haven’t gotten it back out…  I *may* weigh myself tomorrow morning – but I may wait until Friday for my monthly weigh/measure – I guess it depends on whether or not I oversleep ;)

Here are my goals for the month of November:

  1. 10 pound weight loss (that’s right, going for double digits!)
  2. Exercise 900 minutes – that’s an average of 30 min each day
  3. Average 2000/cal daily
  4. Cardio 3x/week – 20 min each
  5. Paint the main floor ceiling & hallway
  6. Unpack the 2 big boxes in the laundry room
  7. Swim 2x – at least 30 min each time

On the plus side of the past few days, I did get a couple items checked off my 101 in 1001….  :D

The party was FAB-U-LOUS, but I am SOOOOO glad to be done with the cooking and getting ready for it…  And all the effort was well worth it!

I don’t think I over did it – I only had two drinks – mainly because I kept wandering away from my glass.  And although I can’t say my eating has been good these past days, I don’t think I went way overboard – although my digestive system would disagree at the moment.  But I’m trying to be back on course.  Tried to make sure the majority of the leftovers went home with guests.  There are some cookies left, but I’ll bring those into work tomorrow.

There are also some of the bacon cupcakes left.  Although they were good, they weren’t what I was trying to have them be.  The cupcakes themselves weren’t maple-y enough, and I used a new ganache recipe which as it turns out was not as good as my usual one.  I also put too much ganache on them so that overpowered any other taste.  The bacon was fabulous.  :)

I also tried a new recipe for bacon & bleu cheese stuffed mushrooms – and they were a HUGE HIT!  And dead easy too.  And although I HATE mushrooms and the smell of them baking made me slightly naseaus, the peeps loved them so much that they will probably be added to the regular list of things to make.

My pumpkin bread wound up not being pumpkin bread at all.  I HATE store bought canned pumpkin, and it turns out I was completely out of my homemade canned pumpkin.  I did however have homemade mincemeat, so I altered the recipe to use it instead – and DAMN IT WAS GOOD!  Spicy & moist, and even the people who said they didn’t like mincemeat liked the bread.

But now I have to get my focus back to the weight loss.  Hunting season is over, so I should be seeing the Evil Trainer twice a week from now on.

So, slighly late, here are my goals for between now and Friday (my next weigh-in):

  1. Pilates 1x
  2. Evil Trainer 1x
  3. Swim 1x
  4. Cardio 3x – 20 min
  5. No Fast Food/Pizza
  6. Weigh 250 (not sure what I weigh today)